Latin popularis "belonging to the people, general, common; devoted to or accepted by the people; democratic," from populus "people".

I was never a popular figure. It is something that haunted me for so long. That feeling of exclusion and not belonging. I sometimes am too ingrained in my own things and thoughts that other people become white noise. I don't notice them or worry about them until it's too late or it's gone. 

I am good with a one-to-one. Having a good conversation. Sharing ideas, beliefs, and experiences. I always aimed to learn something from people and quite often was disappointed. I find exhausting to chit-chat. I don't want to know, I am not interested. I have better things to do...

But life is sometimes about small talk.

Today everything is a bit bleh and I didn't do my run for three days straight. 

Better days are on the way, and better things are coming. I can feel it.