Entry 24/365

To concentrate. 

Concentrate, from assimilated form of Latin com "with, together" (see con-) + centrum "center" (see center (n.)).

I can easily become obsessed about things and find a million os scattered tasks I have to put together in order to solve a problem that only exists in my head. 

I became obsessed with tracking things and transforming my life into a Google Sheet.  Tracking gives me a sense of purpose and what I do, intention.  The type of things I need, or my brain needs to function. I know most people will say "oh but we all need these things" - yes we all do - but people that struggled with mental health find that purpose even for the smallest of tasks it's like a jar of water in the desert. 

I cannot bring myself to the gym if I don't follow a sort of program. I managed to save hundreds of pounds by setting Savings Challenges I have to do daily and monthly. Once we set an intention, we build purpose and with purpose, I can function. I have a tracking system for Home Work so I set small tasks for my son to complete and so on and so forth...

This is also valid for the "more important" things in the scale of Life's Important Things. 

My mind gets lost so easily, I jump from one thing to the next without knowing what I am doing. Concentrating is a task for me that does not come naturally, the baby brain became the brain fog. 

It is still a blessing in disguise, my life is better now that I depend on a list to function, if only I knew or had learned this when I was younger and so very lost. My " Tomorrow" list helps me to concentrate on the million scattered things I need to get done, and manage - and in this I include myself. 

Tomorrow wouldn't be tomorrow without my Tomorrow List. 

Giselle